I have reached a crossroads in my life. All crossroads are hard to navigate. You have to look at every option and decide which one is best for you in the near and far future. Sometimes you have to leave behind people whom you have learnt to love and to call friend. And, sometimes the friendships are more important than anything else.
I have a small circle of people that I associate with on a regular basis whose company I enjoy. I've been known to spend hours in the company of these friends and acquaintances. But, recently I have spent very little time with them. Their regular meeting time are to late or interfere with my own plans. The few times we have gotten together recently have been awkward and uncomfortable. All I can think about is leaving.
I want to spend time in my kitchen, my garden, or now in my studio. There are no petty battles for attention except from the cats. My paints and beads don't care who I spend more time with or what I'm doing. And, there is a great feeling of accomplishment that I get out of doing these things, that I have never truly gotten from the group activities.
So, today I have been sitting here pondering if I should bid adieu to the few people in the group that I care about and just move on with my life? Or, should I swallow my frustration and continue on as I have, unhappy and unfulfilled? How do you know when it is time to say goodbye?